Fight from the Inside

Ariana // 18 // NJ


I know this is going to sound like I’m such a total snob and a whiny little bitch…..but I gotta just rant about it.

My parents have been talking amongst themselves recently, apparently, and they’ve decided that I have to get a job.  And my dad told me tonight that if I don’t find a place to work by the end of the month, I’m going to be forced to work at the new CVS that’s opening in our town.

I really don’t want a job during school, because even though it’s senior year, I still feel like I’ll have too much on my plate with a job and schoolwork.  Plus I don’t want my job to be the majority of what I spend my free time on.  I want to enjoy my last year of high school as much as I possibly can(ha….nevermind, that’s kind of a joke….) but I really just don’t want to work insane hours for minimum wage.

I mean, obviously I’m not going to get like $15 an hour at any possible job I could find in my town, but I just really don’t want it to take over my life.  I would absolutely become so depressed if my life was just work and school and nothing else.  I would be so run-down and exhausted and I’m such a social person that I know that if I had a job, I’d miss out on fun activities that my friends would all go to, and I wouldn’t be able to spend as much time as I am now with Jack, and UGH. I really just don’t want to work until the summer when I go back to the pool and lifeguard, which is something that I LOVE doing.  And I can still lifeguard, but the only option I have is working at the YMCA, which I really don’t want to do because they have shit pay, long hours, and the bosses treat everyone under them absolutely horribly.

I don’t understand why I just can’t wait until summer to start working again.  I mean I can understand I should really start earning money for college, but any amount of money I earn between now and summer would amount to literally nothing in the big scheme of things in terms of my tuition.

UGH.  Nevermind.  I just really don’t want a shitty job like working at CVS.  I want a fun, interesting, engaging job where I can work with nice people, and not be stressed out.

Let’s hope this somehow manages to work out….